i just feel complicated at this very moment.... i dont know why... i mean thinking is the main cause for this problem. every single minute i get that flash.... its dangerous though as it drifts me away from the surface of earth until i slap myself to come back to reality.... i am not 'that" type of a girl.... i remember... i used to be built tough to fight against any obstacle that attacks me in both ways, physically and mentally.... but i seem to be losing that strength in the latter.... i dont understand why.. i just dont... its just not me.... its all based on assumptions i guess.... i do advice others regarding similar issues like this... but i feel rather stupid now as i'm trapping myself too.... sighhh..... hate this 'path' of life....
